Friday, August 28, 2009
We are home....now a new journey lies before us.
Over the last ten days, I have been told that Chilly's prognosis is very poor. It's highly unlikely he will survive the next two years. (The manner in which that news was delivered to me is a blogpost in itself...) His heart, kidneys and brain are just deteriorating too rapidly for his body to continue on much beyond that. I, however, have seen Chilly cheat death on many occasions. I am holding on to hope that he will this time as well.
I am overwhelmed with emotion when I read all of your very loving and supportive comments. They were a lifeline to me and my children during the last ten days. Thank you from the very bottom of my truly grateful heart.
In a few brief seconds, our lives irrevocably changed on Friday, August 14. That's all it took for the stroke to occur and set the heart attack in motion as well. We are savoring every second we have together as a family. The likelihood of another stroke is incredibly high as is another heart attack. This will probably cause Chilly's passing. We are beginning a video diary for our kids with Chilly sharing stories from his childhood, "daddy" advice on all things growing up, etc. It's unbearable to me to know my children will lose their father this early in life.
Chilly wants me to continue blogging. He loves to read my blog and insists that I don't give it up. I struggled with that for a while, but decided to keep on blogging. Writing is healing for me so I will continue on. I promise this blog will not turn morose. I will continue to share the funny and try to make you giggle when you come to visit (especially you, Chilly, my very sweet love...)
Again, thank you for hanging with me during this very difficult time. I am going to get back to blogstalking soon. I love reading blogs and think that it's just the ticket to bring some sunshine back into my world.
I love you all...